I was listening to the Abiding Together podcast the other day and came across an episode titled “How to Begin Dreaming”. This episode stood out to me particularly at this time in my life, as I’ve been questioning if my choices and goals are to glorify God or for my own personal desires and achievements. For years, when God was not a focus in my life or even really a consideration, I chose my goals on how they made me feel. Concern over not being enough or as good as those I compared myself to was a driving force in my choices. I’m usually left feeling empty and more unsure of myself in these instances.
The idea of glorifying God through my career and other lifestyle choices is a relatively new concept to me so this podcast episode came at a good time. One of their journal questions that really got me thinking is “What is something you used to love when you were younger that God may want to redeem and restore”? (Listed in show notes) My immediate thought is writing. I loved writing as a child. Yesterday when I was cleaning out our basement I came across a box of memories where I saved poetry and stories I wrote throughout the years. My plan as a child was to be a ”writer” when I grew up. As I got older, the dream of writing or being a writer seemed unrealistic for me. Before starting this blog, it had been quite some time since I wrote much of anything, besides papers in graduate school, which was quite a few years ago at this point.
Fast forward, I started this blog so that I could reflect what I am learning about the Church and God. So that I can ask tough questions. So that I can be a part of a community of mutually supportive people. I started a blog because I felt compelled to write a blog. I’ve wanted to for quite some time but due to my own insecurities I never took the plunge. Is this dream of wanting to blog about my journey in the faith a desire that God has put on my heart? Is this blog a way to begin to fulfill my childhood dream of writing in some capacity? I can’t say for sure. My hope is that my writing will glorify God and although I am still figuring out what exactly I will use this blog for- my ultimate hope is to serve others and build up the kingdom in some small way.
What were your childhood passions and hobbies?
Do you feel that God is trying to redeem them for the greater good of others?2